finally i feel numb

yes. i never thought this day too shall come to pass. it is as vyasa says in the mahabharata. time does indeed play numb. you have been gone for years. and finally, i do not even make an effort to dredge you up. it was as if you existed only in some past life. it feels like we hadn't even met. that i did not even know you, like two galaxies on opposite ends of the universe(if it can have ends that is). separated by speeding light that can never be able to reach on time to deliver my messages of redemption, from you, from the pain of your passing. it seems exactly like waking up from a dream, not even remembering the details, all fuzzy, only vaguely recollecting the terror, soon dismissed as just a dream (or nightmare, if you choose to call it that). it seems like time indeed has helped put light years between us. and that is the real tragedy, that i am not even sure those memories of you were real or not. maybe it wasn't because it was never meant to be.